What Have I Done?

What Have I Done?
Why did it turn out to be like this?
What is it that I am lacking?
Why Do I feel I am so down?

What Have I Done?
Did I deserve this?
Why is it that it seems I can't move. 
Why is it that it only exist in my mind?

What Have I Done?
I want to change like what my mind says
I want to choose what is right
I want to follow the path I wanna follow
But it seems I cant

It seems so true that if you wanna follow and build your dreams/goals
there are lots of temptations, obstacles and difficulties that will follow
that everything is just seems so hard
that life is not that easy
that surviving is important
that what you do today affects the future
that how you spend your life in present will reflect in future

But why is it that It seems so slow;
why is it that life is just how it is
that whatever you do
whatever decision you make
you'll still be the same

It seems like there is always tomorrow 
but time passes so quickly
It moves very fast that we can't imagine that its already here
that you can say: Wow, Its been a long time since I'm doing those things in past
But what can you do?
You'll just a person in the past that thinking: It's okay, Ill do it tomorrow.

How long will I act like this?
How many times, years will pass before I can say: I have to do this right now.
How many experience, situations I wanna experience
How many times you want to move on and think You'll have to change and start changing
How? When? Why? Where?

What Have I done.. 
Now that I'm here
I don't know what to do
I Don't know where to start
I don't know if i can make it
I don't know if i deserve it
I don't know why they give me this kind of life
Am I worth it?
I should be thankful, right?

Oh God! What Have I Done?